"You stopped the snow?!?" "Yes. Sheer force of will. We said no Christmas, so I had no Christmas."

okay. so this is not meant to make family members sad. it is just on my mind.

so December and January have always been INSANELY crazy in my family. INSANELY.
I mean in descending order we have:
younger brother's bday (Dec 13)
Christmas (3 places that day) (duh)
my bday (Dec 30)
(now) Evie's bday (Dec 29)
2nd older sister bday (Jan 2)
older brothers bday (Jan 11)
step dads bday (Jan 23 or 24)
oldest sisters bday (Jan 23 or 24)
brother in law's bday (Jan 30)

I mean, that is just crazy! that is a lot of stuff happening in a ridiculously short amount of time, but we handle it. no birthday is forgotten and Christmas (as shuffle-y as it is) always is happy and HAPPENS! i can't imagine a Dec/Jan without the insanity. it is what it is.

but this year, its exactly the same with 2 extra things thrown in. My little brother is going on a mission. And i am SO HAPPY FOR HIM. do NOT get me wrong about that. I am so very excited for him to go. but it comes at a strangely weird price for me.
His farewell and shin-dig is on: you know it! December 30th. yep. my birthday.
Now i know that i won't be "forgotten"; i've made sure of it. just cuz little brother is leaving, doesn't mean i get to be forgotten. and my family is being so great about me reminding them about my birthday practically everyday out of worry that in all the extra insanity of preparing for the mission they actually might forget about me. I don't even know when i am going to be able to celebrate my birthday! but I don't want to be all emotional and upset about ppl forgetting my birthday. I mean, i'm 21. big deal. its one birthday.
But today (meaning Christmas Eve) my dad mentioned that its not so much that i'm worried about ppl forgetting its that i'm taking my little brother leaving a lot harder than i've been letting on so i've been over compensating by focusing on my birthday.
He is right. about 95% right.
I don't want my birthday forgotten because it is my damn birthday!
But little brother and I have been through EVERYTHING big together:
the divorce
the re-marriages
the being the only two left at home(s)
the shuttling between GA and UT
but this GIGANTIC part of our lives is going to be separate; he is going to Singapore for two years and I am going to be a nanny (somewhere) for a year. we may not get a long as fabulously as we once did but because we went through the hardest stuff together we have a friendship that is beyond just siblings. at least i think we do. I am really going to miss him; so will everyone else, but i will miss him for some majorly different reasons.
So i guess it boils down to with all the focus on preparing him to leave, it freaks me out so i NEED to focus on my birthday. i need to know that it (I) still matter...


over dramatic much? maybe, but its how i am...

"People can live a hundred years without really living for a minute. You climb up here with me, it's one less minute you haven't lived."

So. i really need help with this one.

Reggie.

here is what happened from my point of view w/ a few tidbits from friends:
we met 3 days in to Freshman orientation at USU. 3 days. We kissed and then he told me that he really liked me and that he wanted to be with me. i panicked. i said, lets just see what happens. and then the "perfect sunday" happened (refer to 2 previous blog posts). things were going just fine until i had a complete freakout. i couldn't do it. i have always had a wall surrounding me when it came to love and i COULD NOT understand how after 2 months i liked this guy as much as i did; and even harder for me to believe was that he ACTUALLY liked me more than i liked him! it just wasn't possible to feel that way after that amount of time! it just couldn't be.
so, i pushed him away, or at least i tried to. he didn't want to go away...had to admire that, but i'm more stubborn. sadly. so he finally got tired of it (i'm guessing..) and stopped trying. but i didn't stop. i had to be sure. of what, i have NO CLUE. i was vicious, ridiculous, absurd, out right nasty to him. yet he still managed to stay semi-friendly...at first. then it became a battle.
then second semester started.
i had the break to realize that i was INSANE! so, i started going to regular therapy and what not and eventually got on anti-depressants. it helped. but (to make a LONG story short..) i realized too late that i screwed up what should have been and definitely could've been a great relationship because he is an amazing guy...
now. here is the fun twist. i scare him. or make him nervous, or weird him out, etc (friends perspectives here..). here is an even twist-ier twist...my best friend up at USU likes him. potentially loves him. he at least likes her back..and lets her write him on his mission. I was asked not to contact him...
the icing on the cake you ask?
according to above friend...before he left for the summer and his mission, he would ask about me out of concern and worry (big changes were happening for me at that time). i didn't find ANY of this out until half way through my 2nd year first semester.
it bothers me and became the icing because, i was convinced that he HATED me and that i was over him, but now, given how much he initially liked me and how i treated him...i wonder:
was it just because he is an amazing guy that he still cares for me on some level? or was it because he wants to renew a friendship? or was it because he still likes me but because of certain changes, i wasn't pre-missionary friendly so he needed to stay clear? which brings me to my biggest concern and pondering:
just how badly did i damage things and can i fix what i thought was broken...

"I'm ready to wallow now."

Here is some food for thought:

I was talking to my mom earlier this week about how over Jake I really was...I'm not going to focus on that frustrating part (talking to my mom, who is all but TOO happy to have him out of my life, about it). I'm focusing on the thoughts I had about it...

I am over him. I am. To some extent. I don't want to be part of his life like I was, I am glad that I finally am able to see him without falling about, and I'm so glad that I have gotten away from the pain that he caused me for so SO many years.
BUT he choose someone else. I was a huge part of his life for so long and he was my best friend and I loved him. I really loveD him. so to have him choose someone else over me after everything we've been through together, hurts so much. seeing him with her is STILL more than i can handle. He might marry her and that i can't handle. I don't want to be married this young, I really don't, but why does he love her more than me? what did i do that was so wrong that he couldn't be with me?
and then this whole thing made me think about how it seems like everyone i know (who are all younger than me *except one*) is getting married. am i missing something here? did i not get the memo? why does it seem that i can't make a relationship work, but all these ppl (again YOUNGER than me) seem to know that they can make a damn marriage work!
here is a list of all the ppl i know who are now or will be married by Dec 31 2007:
my georgia friends:
Racheal Isenberger
Deysi Valle
Stephanie Stander
my utah friends:
Rachel Kohlbrand
Valarie Jackson
Sky Sidwell (*as far as i still know)
my cousins:
Jessica Bickmore
Sam Orme (*the one older)

that is 8 ppl. THIS YEAR!!!!! all except for racheal isenberger and valarie jackson are getting married this year.

again...did i miss a memo or something? what am i doing wrong?

i don't want to be married. i REALLY don't. but i don't want to be alone. i want to at least start dating! just dating! not even a relationship. i just want to DATE! can i not even have that? because I screwed up with jake and reggie (different post for a different time) am i destined to be alone? can i not catch a break? why can't i find anyone yet everyone else seems to get ppl. the only person i know of that wants to be with me is in georgia and only wants to be with me for...an inside reason...it will never work so this is what i'm left with: 1 guy that i used to love but still hurts me and chose someone else, and 1 guy who doesn't know that i still love him...but he is "scared" by me...

any ideas?

"Wow, sleeping with you is getting me nothing."

just another poem...feeling very poem-y lately...huh

The Perfect Sunday
The sun was shining high
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
Calm and relaxing
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
Me reading, you hugging me tight
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
Lying together as innocent as children
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
Snuggled close, not saying a word
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
Hours passed without a single thought
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.
One gentle kiss says goodbye
On that perfect
Sunday afternoon.

That day was probably one of the best days I've ever had and about 2 months later, I ruined what could've been a great relationship for me...
Do I self sabotage or what?

"It’s more fun that way, isn’t it?"

a poem i "wrote" (wrote being, thought of it in my head...) on monday night on the way to my grandma's to make chocolate! (post about that forthcoming..)

Untitled
I'm sorry for the things I said.
I'm sorry for the things I did.
How was I supposed to know
you'd be the one to make
my heart believe?
When I saw you, I guessed it.
When you kissed me, I knew it.
How was I supposed to know
you'd be the one to make
my heart believe?
Broken from before,
Guarded since forever.
How was I supposed to know
you'd be the one to make
my heart believe?
Tried to push you away, you held on.
Finally scared you away and
Lost the one who made
my heart believe...

Meant for the one that could've been and still should be...

"Perfect. Find someone who vaguely resembles me. Take him. Just don’t kiss him goodnight."

i have just recently re-watched the fabulous movie "The Departed" and i have decided that i would give every single thing i own and sell out my family (if they were part of the mafia) to get a chance to make out with Mr. Gorgeous Himself: Leonardo DiCaprio. i'm pretty sure he was my first celebrity crush and i don't think i've ever stopped adoring him. he is just fantastic. beautiful.
seriously, ANYTHING for a single chance to kiss him....
just so you know...

"Cold! Cold! Icy feet, stupid frozen tundra house!"

okay, so it snowed.
BIG time snowed.
almost a foot of snow, snowed.
crazy pretty FREEZING ass snow.
(do we get the point yet?)

last night 10:30pm:
just raining.
lightly raining.

this morning 8:05am:
4-5 inches of fluffy cold snow

this afternoon 2:51pm:
almost a foot of snow (as said above).

welcome to Utah folks.
I mean, we don't have
"Best Snow On Earth" on our license plates for nothin'!
i mean. geez. one minute its raining, the next SNOW!

okay, are you understanding my point yet?
if not, plain and simple:
snow is pretty but snow. is. COLD!
i don't like it!

okay, so today, starting at 8:30 in the morning, i went with my dad to his work (Riverton High) to help him out with grading. he graded, i entered them into PowerSchool.
basically, it was pretty entertaining.
I forgot how stupid high school students can be!
its simply amazing how many students forget their names!
quite humorous.

then after we finished 4.5 hrs of work (which w/o my help would've meant my dad would've had 9 hours of work to do! yay for me!), we went back to his house where my little brother and i shoveled the driveway (yet another reason to HATE snow. no. DISLIKE snow.) and ate wienerscnitzel (wha?). yum. seriously. yum.

and THEN, i checked email and blogged. overall, so far, a pretty decent day!

yay for decent days!

"Michel, it's the first snowfall of the season. It's very lucky! Make a wish."

well. as you can tell from my title, the first snow of the season was today.
IT WAS CRAZY!
But of course it was beautiful, as snow always is...
my car drove like a dream (well as dreamy as the old lady can get) which has
been worrying me since it started acting like an old lady...
so, no big worries there
BUT with the snow, comes some old weird memories...
i think i'm agreeing w/ lorelai on one more thing:
the snow is lucky....

"You see a man, you walk up to him, and you say..." "Hello..."

Breakfast, shopping, and movie pending with blogging mom and teacher-in-training cousin=fabulous hilarious fun!

As per thanksgiving tradition, the 3 of us go on a shopping extravaganza and of course breakfast is involved, and it is always such a blast!

Ah, traditions....

"Well, that we're not Native Americans who got their land stolen in exchange for smallpox infested blankets."

Happy Thanksgiving Internet World!
(and family of course!)

Give thanks to those you love!



that's all for now.

"This is you in 20 years. "Who is this?" I swear."

so basically, a nice dinner with a couple of friends is absolutely fantastic.
great food (Trio, of course), hilarious conversation, what could be better?


there isn't really much to say in this post except for that.
i miss having a social life. granted, the one i had in logan wasn't exceptionally a mile a minute experience, but at least i had one.
here? nada. nothing. zero.
so when i occasionally get to go out and have fun, its REALLY fun.

i need to do more of that...

"You don’t wanna be with me, Rory."

just one of my "I Miss Him" poems....
not very good of course, but you'll get the point...

Rebuild
I'm trying to get over you
But the universe wants to play a game
I feel strong and confident
Then you appear, and my wall shatters.
Rebuild; I can do it.
Then your name is mentioned, and I fall apart
Rebuild; It's worth it.
Rebuild. I have to.

*side note: I really wish I could say that I hate him...most of me does, but
will someone please make my heart agree?*

"They've just upgraded you to a queen-size bed, jacuzzi tub, junior suite in hell."

okay. this post is mostly pictures. enjoy!

cute baby orangutan acara
Devil Monkeys...
Eat Elephant Eat!!! (so cool!!)
Stalking Leopard...He saw the food
My Favorite Tiger...


So, these are some of my favorites...I like working at the zoo but its mostly just a temporary job. While its fun, its not really me. DON'T FREAK OUT!! I like it, but I realize I need something closer to me and not so...with food. :D

Yay for blogs...

"Silly Rabbit." "Timers are for kids!"

"Hail to the new and MUCH improved fast FAST internet!
much appreciation to you oh internet server!
you act like a friend instead of mine enemy.
Praise be to you and things we can do."


Any way, with that said, on to the purpose of this post
there is none...
mostly just yay new internet connection.

Also, december at work is kinda gonna suck but be really interesting.
The Hogle Zoo is doing something brand new this year called
"Zoo Lights" which is supposed to be amazing in decorating the entire zoo in millions (or maybe thousands...) of holiday (holiday, not christmas) lights.
What sucks is that because of the lack of employees, I and 2 others will be the only full time non-salary employees working 9am-9pm. yikes. oh well, lots of money for me! :D

okay, I'm done.

"Now, walk smooth. That's the new Harry Potter on your heads. If they should drop, Harry will die, and there won't be any more books."

So basically, here is what has been going on with Abbey since August.

--I have officially quit Subway and have been gone since September. So I guess I can say that I'm OFFICIALLY done with Subway when I've had a different job for at least 6 months without falling back into Subway. So far, so good...

--I am currently working at the Utah Hogle Zoo...in foods, but hopefully only temporary; although w/ that said, its quite entertaining where I am and I quite like it so far. Its a big change but I am really liking it.

--I have 5 friends my age or younger getting married by the end of the year and it is oddly depressing for non-obvious reasons.
*a hint would be: I've never had a serious relationship (but I'm only 20...) yet, my married friend total by Jan 1, 2008 will be 8...am I just doing something wrong?...

--I still have multiple plans for my future that have little push to become a reality. Namely:
a) Trip to Italy (and Greece)
b) Becoming a nanny or au pair
c) Moving out of my mom's house
d) Moving to Scotland & living w/ my sister for a month before traveling around Europe

--I still have almost zero social life to speak of. I'm tired all the time. Yet, I still manage to complain about the lack of S.L. when I just need to muster up the energy to do something about it.

--I'm still saving as much money as I can so that I can go back to school by (hopefully; cross your fingers everyone) fall 2008! Because, with this much needed time off, I've been able to realize that what I want to do is get a college degree. I still have the options I originally started with:
-English
-Editing
-(Hell, why not) Pre-Law
I want to be in school. Its what I feel I need to be doing. Saving money is what I need to be doing right now, but school is what I need to do. and I'm happy with that and I feel that come next August, I will be able to enroll in classes again and do the work and get that grades I know I am capable of getting.


--But mostly, what I've been doing since my last post is focusing on staying happy. So far, so successful! I have my days, but ultimately, I'm so happy and I feel like I'm mostly getting my life back on some sort of track instead of wandering around aimlessly. Yay me. :D


Well, I think I've sufficiently blogged to my mom and sisters happiness (and of course mine), so I will sign off for now. And I promise to keep them coming on a slightly more regular basis...

"Waffles very happy..."

Okay, so I've been "tagged" by my eldest sister and I'm getting a little tired of my last blog, so I figure its high time for a new one!


The Rules
1. List the link to your tagger and also post these following rules.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog - some random, some weird, etc.
3. Tag 7 people at the the end of your blog also leaving the links to their blogs
4. Let them know they are "TAGGED" by leaving a comment on their blog

my "tagger":
(http://davieshandsacross.blogspot.com)

my 7 facts:
1) I have naturally uneven thumbs.
2) I am shamelessly addicted to Gilmore Girls (my titles are quotes from random episodes..)
3) I own all 7 (and one "Greatest Hits") albums by the Backstreet Boys and LOVE every single one. :D
4) I am the best aunt in the world. Its not just talk, its true.
5) I have a tattoo. (On my ankle; chinese symbol for "dream")
6) I am a hopeless romantic.
7) I have some of the most boring facts posted you could possibly see... tehehe! :D


I don't have 7 to tag but I have:
Diane Orme!!
(http://poemsforall-diane.blogspot.com)

"I had decided that if I ever went to therapy I'd leave you out of it, but NOW!"

so, the two most important things that i learned over the summer are:

1) its horrifyingly sad that Harry Potter has no more adventures coming

and

2) NEVER work with a old, good friend. It WILL end bad.

Having said that, i will expand.

1) the day HP7 came out, I finished it and it was quite sad, but totally satisfying. It was a totally different experience to talk about the 7th book because there are no longer theories to discuss and debate, its just done. I would also like to say that I abigail eve bickmore was the one (in my family at least) who had the theory that HP was indeed the final horcrux. i did not however call he would come back to life! i mean, understand it, but really?! anyways, i am totally happy with the 7th and final installment of the life and world changing Harry Potter series! :D

2) while i knew that the friend i hired to work with me (at the job I am still horrifyingly at) was pretty flaky and in a hard place (aka life drowning) in her life, i figured that we had been friends long enough to think that she would at least give me the respect (out of friendship of course) to either stick w/ the job whole-heartedly before quitting or quit knowing that she wouldn't. neither happened. too much to explain and put into real words, but the short version is, she crapped out on me and blamed ME for it. HA! right, my fault...like i haven't heard that one before. funny. Our friendship is currently on the rocks and (as far as i can see) on a permanent pause. I'm so worried about her and how she is living her life, that if i put to much thought into it, I'LL fall apart because she doesn't care about her own life. I want to help and be the good friend, but i'm at my wits end and I can't do it anymore...i just can't. but, she refuses to see it...and until she does, i'm out. completely out; of ideas, of emotions, of energy. i'm done. i love her, but i can't be there anymore.

oh, and the other thing i've learned is: i'm a planner of many plans. i have thought out so many plans to the very final detail and have yet to follow through on any of them. i can't wait for the day when even ONE of those plans pans out...i don't even care which plan! it will be a great day...


okay, i'm done. :D

"I like to see you happy."

Its been awhile. Updates:

1) still a manager at stupid subway, but i'm used to it now so its not so bad anymore...just stressful
2) still planning on italy, just still taking sometime to figure it all out...i realize FULLY i can't go until have enough money to go and enough money saved for when i come back.
3) still single, hate it...not sure why...
4) my life is still only about subway...i do NOTHING else...its a little frustrating...
5) i've officially "broken up" with jake...haven't talked to my so called best friend in almost a month...that hurt like hell, but at least now i know how important i really was. and i can't help it...i still miss him...and worse? I still love him...
6) I am going to ATTEMPT to talk a photography class this fall and see where that takes me in where i want to go...i need to figure out my camera though....
7) also, i'm completely off my meds now which really rocks! I'm doing really well. I feel really happy and I really am just taking it day by day and just keep trying to make it through calmly and rationally!

well, life is going on and on and all i can really do right now is take it day by day and see where it takes me. especially since major future plans freak me out. This is a really crazy summer so far and not because anything particularly HUGE has happened but because i'm 20 yrs old and FINALLY in a place where I can go where I want to go w/ my future and be okay with it. I just have to figure that all out first...but its fun trying to figure it out...

"I love you, you idiot!"

okay, so I got two of my wisdom teeth out today and it sucks! my mouth hurts so so bad!! :( but i'm doing okay and handling it pretty well...i hope! and thats about it for me right now....okay i'm done...

"I'm 18 years old I'm not supposed to want my mommy! Do something to make me hate you!"

What happens when the best Aunt is in charge of bath, hair and bedtime: beautiful french braids
Baby girl reaching for her Uncle Walker...
Amelia is finally an aunt! Its possibly the best gift next to motherhood (I don't know personally)
Smiling girl smiling for her favorite aunt! Big grins bring big cuddles!!!
Sisters laying together holding hands and "being gentle"! Beautiful girls I might add!
My dad (grandpa), me and Miriam doing what this family does best: READ!!
Getting a beautiful blessing is tiring! Lucky grandma is here to hold me! Beautiful and peaceful :)
Happy and loving sister giving little sister a big love!!
The best picture I've ever taken and it is on my camera phone!!! :(
Cuddling with the best aunt ever who has that magic touch that can get me to sleep...I miss her!



It was high time for a new post from me and what better way to kick it off than to start with great pictures and memories from the last 3 weeks. I miss them so so much!!! It was so hard to have them leave! But it was great to see them while it lasted! :(

On another note (and the reason I haven't posted) my job is CRAZY!!! I am now a manager of one of my uncle's Subway's and it is crazy! fun, but crazy! The pay might not be FULLY worth it yet, but we'll see...

well, that is about it for now.....oh and boys suck!

and italy is still on just not sure when...

okay, done.

"It's too soon. If I stop to think you're leaving, I'll fall apart."

Gilmore Girls. You have given me 7 amazing seasons and 7 years worth of laughs, cries, advice, and happiness.
Lorelai and Rory have become like my best friends who I can always turn to for comfort.

I'm seriously upset its over. What will I fill my Tuesdays with now?!?!?!

Thanks for the laughs! I'll miss you! :(

"One day you'll wake up and POW! You'll have color comin' out your Ying-Yang!"

My baby nephew Deacon!!! adorable as ever and always! Love that boy! Mom and baby are coming home today happy and healthy! Yay for healthy and happy!!!

Also, nieces and sister and bro-in-law will be here Monday!!! I'm so freakin' excited!!!




My baby nephew Deacon!!! adorable as ever and always! Love that boy! Mom and baby are coming home today happy and healthy! Yay for healthy and happy!!!

Also, nieces and sister and bro-in-law will be here Monday!!! I'm so freakin' excited!!!

"I just don't want to see what's coming around the mountain!"

Pictures of my BEAUTIFUL nephew Deacon John Leasure!!!

He was born May 8th 2007 at about 6:43 pm
weighing in at 7lbs and 9oz and 21 1/2 inches!

both mom and baby are healthy and happy!
Loving being an aunt 3 times over!!

My sister, bro-in-law, and nieces from Scotland arrive this weekend! happy summer for me!!!

"Did we actually order the pizza?" "I don't know. I thought we just discussed it.."

home...home again....

i've been home for 3 days and i've worked 2 days out of that 3 and i've already cried from a fight with my dad. its a new record! haha but its been fun to be home! i have yet to get into a rhythm but i will and i also want to just watch a bunch of movies but i don't really think it will happen soon....

a week from today, my scottish family is coming! i am so excited!
and prego sister could pop any day!!! exciting! haha!

"No see I said "coffee coffee coffee" as in I NEED "coffee coffee coffee!" see, its a bit I do...how much do I owe you?"

okay...so a triple Irish cream latte=best thing ever! :D
i have decided that coffee is a very tasty thing! but not black coffee.
i like lattes, cappuccinos, and mochas! they are some tasty drinks!!

but on a VERY different note, it is time for an update on my movie watching!
I have just recently and successfully finished watching:
Rebel Without A Cause--AMAZING! james dean was actually suprisingly good! i really thought he was all hype, but boy howdy was I wrong! wow! plus Natalie Wood rocked and was so pretty!
Double Indemnity--really really really good! it was like nothing I had ever seen before! truly a genre of its own!! i mean, it actually is, but wow. really. wow. i have no idea who those actors are, but it was a great movie! "two thumbs way way up!" (name that movie!!!! come on mom! you can do it!)
Close Encounters of the Third Kind--this movie rocked but it freaked the hell out of me! steven speilberg knows how to make a movie!! at least in the 70s, 80s (or whenever his big hits were) he did!! but seriously, richard dreyfuss was phenom!!! those aliens freaked me out though! oh and the little little boy was so so cute!!!!

okay...that is my update on the movies!!! and oh yeah, i am done w/ school come 4:30ish today! i'm very excited for 4:30ish to come around!

oo! update on sisters!
prego sister is due in 14 days! i'm so excited!!! little nephew come soon!!!
scotland sister is arriving in 12 days!!! SOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay...is that enough exclamation points for today?

" 'I love you?!?!?!' Is he SERIOUS?!?!"

So some friends and I have been recently discussing what Love is; like how is it defined and how do you know if you are IN love. It has been very interesting. I mean, i know what i think love is but my friends see it differently. here is what we all think:

me: love is wanting to be with someone so much it hurts when you're not. love is when the last person you think about when you fall asleep is that person and that person is the first person you think about when you wake up. also...when you are IN love, you just know.
friend 1: there is no definition of love. you are in love when you want everything for that person and they want everything for you.
friend 2: there is no definition of love. you just know when you are in love.
friend 3: there is no definition of love. and there is no one way to know if you are in love.
friend 4: i don't know what love is. it is too complicated to put into words.

Now, with all that said....i obviously agree with myself...but i do also agree that you can't really define love, but you sure as hell can try.
but then again, all this is coming from a hopeless romantic!

"Hey! There is no chill time on Wednesday @ 4!!!"

Okay, so its official: one final + the SIMS2 = BAD PLAN!!!! I should have known this sooner. i get addicted to things, especially games!!! but i had to see what all the fuss was about. now i know. but i gave the game back to my friend and now i am SIMS2 free! it feels so good! but luckily, i only wasted 2 days on it...better than some ppl i know! haha...
now to just figure out how to beat the Gilmore Girls addiction....meh. its not worth it! i am perfectly happy being addicted to that! i say, better to be addicted to a TV show than drugs! haha

update on everything: 2 weeks till my new nephew (you're almost there soph!!!) and 2 weeks till my sister, bro-in-law, and neices!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! i really can't even stand it!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

okay, i'm done!

"We like Toban, but we are ADDICTED to you!"

Okay, school is almost over and it is going by too slowly!!!! i can't even handle it!! i'm dying! and crazy update on Jackass. we are apartly talking again and the friendship is tenative right now. i am apparently keeping him focused on not being such a jackass. it is going pretty well. but it is wierd.
also update on my cousin, he is apparently doing really well, but will have to be in the hospital for about 3 or 4 more days but the doctors say her will recover nicely. good thing too!
update on italy, still planning on going and it is looking more and more like i'll be going as an au pair. which is really scary but so so exciting!! i'm just excited!!
my sister is due in 22 days and i'm so excited!!!! it is going by way to slowly!
other sister is going to be here in 20 days with her husband and my girls!!!! i am so very excited! i might be even more excited for that (and my new nephew) than i am about italy!!!
okay, that was my update because my life is boring and there is nothing else going on.

okay i'm done!

Please pray...

My cousin Ryker (I just found out) is at Primary Children's hospital with what was thought to be a brain tumor but turned out to be just an absess, which is better apparently. He had surgery and is said to be on his way to getting better if he recovers how expected. I'm kinda freakin' out and just wanted to say to my cousin and his (my) family that my thoughts and prayers are with them! Luckily, I will be in salt lake tomorrow so I might be able to stop by and see how he is doing. Okay, well, I better get some sleep.

Ryker buddy...we are all praying for you!

"So which of those boy bands do you like, those Backside Boys or 98 degrees?" "You mean the Backstreet Boys?"

Well, I like the Backstreet Boys. haha so the point of this is because the Backstreet Boys rock! I have no shame in admitting that I still like the Backstreet Boys. But the reason this is worth a blog post is because, i am freakin' out about my ASL interpretation project that I have to do in about 3 hrs and i can not get myself to calm down! then i remembered something. years ago when i first started having panic attacks, the only thing that would KEEP me calm enough to get through the attack or to prevent it was sitting back, closing my eyes and listening to BSB. I figured, it is worth a shot right? So here i am, listening to old and new BSB songs. and it is helping a lot. kind of hilarious i know but, if it works, take advantage of it baby!
And on this little tangent in my head, i would like to name the top 5 BSB songs!

Top 5 Songs:
1) I Want It That Way -Millennium
2) As Long As You Love Me -Backstreet's Back
3) More Than That -Black and Blue
4) Never Gone -Never Gone
5) Shape of My Heart -Black and Blue


Okay I'm done. KTBSPA!! haha

"This is the room that made Liberace say: 'Step back. No one's this gay.' "

Okay, so I just have to get this off my chest. My friend (affectionately known as Cali) just came out to her parents and they are not taking it well. I mean granted, that is not exactly the easiest thing for a parent to hear, well at least not Molly and Peter Mormon parents, but eventually the shock wears off and the acceptance starts. In Cali's case they aren't accepting, they want her to get therapy and talk to the bishop, and never ever come back to Utah (state university) because her "satan-esque" girlfriend is here. She is having a hard enough time with her parents who are putting their pending separation off to focus on her and her problem, but her best friend back home wrote her off in December and is just now willing to talk to her but tell her that she can't support her committing a sin. I just spent the last 2-3 hours talking with her and being a supportive friend and I also was asked to talk w/ the back home best friend and I politely and maturely discussed her views on the church and homosexuality. It was intense. I heard that ignorant people like her existed, but I didn't think it was true! she actually used the line "why should I care what society thinks when I only care about God?"!!! belief in God is one thing, but...well you had to be there to believe it.
I just want to finish with this:
I have gay friends whom I love and fully support, but those friends constantly deal with the hell that society puts them through. Society and religion feels it is a choice not who a person is. My opinion that in a world where people treat homosexuality as "disgusting", "a sin", "gross", etc why in the world would a person CHOOSE to put themselves through such a hell-ish and hard life?
On this topic (and to finish) from 8:00 AM-8:00 PM tomorrow (well today) is the day of silence at USU in support of G.L.B.T people where we don't talk all day. I will keep you posted on how that goes.

Okay, I'm done.

Viewer Discretion is Advised:

So as I'm sure all the country knows, the shooting at Virginia Tech yesterday was awful and such a sad horrible thing for those families who lost loved ones. all my sympathy's to them. but with that said, i would like to divulge into what became a very interesting yet irritating...discussion...between my friends and I.
So while I do totally respect my friends and their different opinions, I can't respect this. Guns allowed LEGALLY on US college campus's. A friend of mine feels that this is totally justified and reasonable. Why shouldn't her 2nd Amendment right be used to its fullest right? wrong. Yes, feel free to keep guns in your homes for protection, if that is your wish; but do not bring them on a HUGE college campus or anywhere where a vast amount of people will be. It is a true, but sad, reality that in today's world, visible guns (not on police) cause fear and panic, not safety. Columbine and 9/11 changed that for us. I personally feel that the "gun control" that is sweeping our nation is insane. Guns should be used for protection purposes by military and police (and those who fall under that category) only. Guns for hunting, I feel should be monitored. So many accidental deaths of children are caused by the guns that their parents keep in the house, and that is so upsetting. Think of your children!
I would like to now quote Chris Rock:
“Gun control? We need bullet control! I think every bullet should cost 5,000 dollars. Because if a bullet cost five thousand dollar, we wouldn't have any innocent bystander .”
I have never heard a truer statement than that right there.
My other problem w/ last nights discussion was that my gun control friend said "shit if I were there, I would've takin' my fuckin' gun and rushed his ass!"
I could not believe my ears!!! there are about 1000 things wrong with this statement, but I'll just name a few.
1) sure she feels confident saying that when she is clear in the HELL across the country!!!!
2) no person in this WORLD knows how they would react in that kind of situation and to say that you do is the biggest bunch of bullshit i've ever heard!
3) it takes more than a moment to say "i'd kill a man and risk my life to save 30 others". we all would like to think that we would try and do something heroic like that, but the truth is, we don't know that. we don't know if we would or could. the shooter at VT was (apparently) a very angry, very depressed man and this was not a spur of the moment decision. it just wasn't.
I love my friend I really do. But in what is now the biggest American college campus mass murder since 1966, you can't just say that you would've done something different because it is disrespectful to the dead, injured and the families affected.

So again I say, all the sympathy's in the world to the students and families affected by this true tradgedy and R.I.P. to those who were killed.

"I've already gone through the 5 stages of grieving: denial, anger...I don't know what these 2 were but they were served on the rocks WITH SALT!"

update on Italy: still going but it is probably going to be as an aupair! :D kinda scary but exciting! but basically i'm going no matter what! yay for me!

update on school: two weeks left and i'm freakin' sick! i'm pissed! i can't believe that i'm sick! that is like the worst thing to happen! okay, not really, but it is still irritating! also this week (Thursday) i have my big ASL interpretation project and i'm freakin' out! but. it is going to be fine. i just have to get it over with and then move on. that is the important thing. phew. relaxing is the key for me...

update on my movie list: just finished the Philadelphia Story, M*A*S*H, and Raiders of the Lost Ark. i actually can't believe i'm saying this but i LOVED them all!!! The P. Story was absolutely amazing!! Cary Grant and K. Hepburn were both so so amazing!!! so that now makes 60 movies down, 40 to go! haha

okay, i'm done! ;)

"So not only did you GO to a cop-raided party, you STARTED the cop-raided party?"

so, tonight was a kick-ass night!!! we (and by we i mean all my girlfriends: annalisa, natasha, kait, katy, Cali, rachel, and TK) went to the club (and by club i mean piece of dookie that pretends to be a club) in logan and it was awesome!! such a needed night out and it was amazing! tomorrow night we are all going to the Sigma Chi house to chill and party some more! can't wait for that!! i love my friends! they are all so amazing and it's impossible to have a bad time when around them!!!

update on Italy, parents won't pay (still love them but GRR) anything, so i'm doing it myself and going in September until November. I will just work 3 jobs and go on my own just as a traveler. That makes me even more excited and about 10,000 x more worth it! so, ITALIA: HERE I COME!

"When in Spain we need to know how to say: 'Do you know where Antonio Banderas lives?'"

i just found something that i have to do. study abroad in italy. i figure i'll work for the summer then go for the fall semester, and by "fall" i mean 4-6 weeks. but i'll be in ITALY studying PHOTOGRAPHY which is something I want to do anyway!!!!! so, yeah. okay. well that is the new plan. i will go to Italy. okay. i'm done.

"Did anyone else hear me say I KNOW the story?!"

okay. just thought that i would share this piece of information:

Christina Aguilera might be the BEST LIVE PERFORMER alive today.
seriously. she has an amazing voice that is not "perfected" in the studio.
it is all her and you can tell from her live performances. seriously.
check out these links if you don't believe me!!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=xvvebo6GOKo&mode=related&search=
http://youtube.com/watch?v=h6tCfjFS2Xg
http://youtube.com/watch?v=p718OuZw0Iw

She might be my celebrity hero.

just thought you should know.

"Pick a team. It needs you!"

being an adult is hard. not to mention EXPENSIVE!!! like, i'm pretty sure i can handle it and what not, but seriously! being fully on your own is going to rock, but wow. this is intense. i'm still way excited to move out (eventually) and do this thing called life on my own, but it is still a little scary and overwhelming. but, at the same time, i'm the only one of my siblings to really and truly do that. i think...basically it is totally going to be like one of those lame but true MasterCard commercials. like the ones that go: hot dog, $3; baseball ticket, $25; time as father/son, priceless! so again, lame, but true.
anyway, i also have a choir concert tonight that i'm excited for but also a little nervous for because we have some great songs, but my teacher wants us to do some by memory that we aren't ready for, and also one song sounds great but looks awful on stage (the way she wants to do it!)!!!! but it will be a great concert! plus my mom and dad are coming!! especially the part about my DAD coming!!! he never got a chance to hear me sing in Belles Voix (my HS women's choir) my senior year because he was in GA, so i'm so so excited that he can come! and my singing brother is coming and my stepdad! yay for family!!! :D

okay, gotta get ready for work!
"super cool party people bid you super cool adieu!"

"and now I'm just happily scotched in acceptance...scotched..."

so i'm super excited for this summer now! i mean i've always been excited because i get a brand new nephew and i get to see my 3 year old niece and the 5 month old niece that i've never seen, so that i'm just anxiously waiting for! but i'm excited because i've decided that i'm going to be a nanny and i can't wait! i already have a family interested in me and i'm going to meet them next saturday to talk out details and figure out all that stuff. it will be for a single mom and her 3 boys. I love kids so much that i think this will be a good way for me to earn money (good money) and do something that i enjoy! i'm so excited! okay, i'm done for today!!

oh yeah, only 28 days left!!! :D

i also decided that when i get an apartment (eventually that is) i'm going to get a puppy!! i'm so excited for that!! i want to get a female puppy and call her roxie! haha maybe! *this is the kind of dog i want! :P

You're like the POP-UP book from HELL!!!

so in true Bickmore family style, it is high time for my top 5's! *cu*rrent top 5's

Top 5 Gilmore Girls Episodes:
1) I Can't Get Started--Rory and Jess KISS!!!!!
2) They Shoot Gilmore's Don't They?--the 24hr dance marathon!!! (aka dean/rory over!)
3) Raincoats and Recipes--LUKE AND LORELAI KISS!!!!!!! :D
4) Jews and Chinese Food--Rory and Logan finally hook-up! :D
5) The Break-up part 1--Rory finally mopes over her (1st) break-up w/ dean

Top 5 Ballads:
1) Hey Jude--The Beatles
2) I want it That Way--The Backstreet Boys
3) More than That--The Backstreet Boys
4) Black Roses Red--Alana Grace
5) In Your Eyes--Peter Gabriel

Top 5 Movies:
1) Breakfast at Tiffany's
2) The Godfather
3) Streetcar Named Desire
4) Practical Magic
5) The Departed

Top 5 Chick Flicks:
1) The Notebook
2) A Cinderella Story
3) Now and Then
4) While You were Sleeping
5) Practical Magic

Top 5 Addicting Games @ addictinggames.com:
1) Sorority Panty Raid--awful but AWESOME!
2) Pacxon--reverse pac-man
3) McDonald's Game--you get to run all of McDonald's
4) Mini-Pool--so dumb, but so entertaining
5) Idiot tests--the fool proof way to see if you are an idiot. tehehe!! fun...

Okay, well that is all for now. I got bored and this made me happy. Enjoy! and if you have any suggestions for more top 5's, feel free to ask!! :D

"Let it Be"--yeah right!

So i'm in the USU women's choir and it is ton of fun and i seriously love it! We are singing some great songs and our concert on April 10th will rock, but on April 3 all the USU choirs will be having a concert (Choir Rocks!) that will consist of ALL Beatles songs, which sounds like it would be great, but...i'm having issues with it. There will be 3 songs that all the choirs will be singing together: "Let It Be" "Hey Jude" and "Sgt. Peppers...Reprise". now if you know me at all you know that "Hey Jude" is probably my favorite song EVER and so i was stoked! until today. The choir director (of USU) came in to teach us the arrangements. Guess what the women's choir gets to sing on "Let.." and "Jude"?? OOHs and AHHs. oh and the word 'better' on "jude". i'm not happy. okay i'm over it. not really, but i kinda have to be...

okay. I'm done!

Beatles rock, oohs and ahhs suck! :P

"Don't Commit Rock'n'Roll suicide, just leave a message at the tone!"

Logan bites!! it snowed! WTF!! seriously! but hopefully it will start warming up. cuz it is two days away from april which is very happy because that means there is only a month left of school!!!!!!! :D :D very very happy! also, this weekend, my friend is going out of town so i get to take care of her BEAUTIFUL horse (pictured below)!!

This horse is awesome!! and she knows me well enough that she is really good around me! oh yeah, her name is Freckles. :D

I can't wait for Friday night cuz my friends and I are having a major girls night! i'm so friggin' excited! it is a well deserved night! haha.

Okay, so i'm done. later!

"A life without Love? That's terrible!"

There is something I have to get out. I've been harboring it for quite some time. My first semester of college there was this boy, lets call him AF (Air Force), and he really liked me. Like head over heels. It was scary, it was exciting, it was fun, it was too much for me. I was just starting down this crazy road of actual life, I wasn't expecting that my first WEEK of college I would find this boy who made me laugh, who made me smile, who made me feel excitement. And I couldn't handle it. I panicked. He wanted to BE with me, and that scared me. I liked him, I did, I just couldn't submit myself to what I saw as utter and complete vunerability. So I told him that. Then things got vicious. I don't want to delve into that part of this story, but needless to say, I hated myself for it. I tried to make it better and not to make myself look like such a crazy person, or as he put it, a psycho person. But in his mind, I was too late. He had moved on and literally wanted NOTHING to do with me again. And I allowed myself to believe that it didn't matter, that I was over it as well and that he was a jerk and I was better off without all of the crap. I lied. I screwed up something that (who knows) could've been really good. Now AF is on a mission and is writing one of my best friends, and they really like each other, but him? He still hates me. I don't know what to do other than let it run its course, but it sucks because I wish AF knew how much I hate that I hurt him and that I panicked like I did.
just goes to show that the movie 'Practical Magic' was right:
"Plant lavender by the front gate for luck, always throw spilled salt over your left shoulder, and fall in Love as OFTEN as you can."
I'm done.

"You Jump, I Jump Jack."

I've figured it out!! I have no more need to stress about where my life is going and what i'm going to do with it and blah blah blah! I'm devoting my life to "stalking" Leonardo DiCaprio, my true and real love! haha, but seriously. When I was in 6th grade, my friends and I were OBSESSED with Titanic and more importantly, Leo. We were crazy! My room was COVERED in posters of him and it was awesome!! Then, I grew up and it was a little scary, so I took down the posters but I was still in LOVE with Leo.

Well, years passed, and I had new crushes (celebrity, of course) but I still harbored a soft spot for my love Leo DiCaprio. Then the wonderful movie 'The Departed' came out, and I remembered why I loved him to begin with. He is gorgeous, he is talented, he is GORGEOUS, he is (in short) AMAZING!!!! This is why it is my new life's goal to stalk him. and by stalk him, I mean find him and marry him, and never leave his side. ever.
I'm not kidding. This is serious. I will work for 3 months, and then I will go find him.

okay. I'm done. :D

"Once your Heart is involved, it ALL comes out in Moron."

School sucks. Boys suck. Work Sucks. Money sucks. basically, life right now sucks! I'm in one of my moods that I absolutely hate! Its that mood where everything sucks and you blame yourself for the suckage. And yes. I said suckage! I don't know what I want to do this summer and this whole school being over in a little over a month is freakin' me out! It is all coming so freakin' fast that I don't feel like I can get it done in time, but then I can't wait for it to be over because I don't want to be in Logan anymore! But then at the same time, I want the weeks to go by slow so that I have the chance to figure out what I'm going to do this summer--job wise, cuz I have NO idea whatsoever!!! I hate that feeling! I can't rely on my parents as much as I have been lately. I just can't. But I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared of doing on my own; which is normal, I know, but it is so damn scary! I want to be on my own, but I really don't know if I can do it. I really don't.
Okay. I can't think about this anymore, so I just had to get it out.
-I'll be back.

College Politics

talking politics with college girls is entertaining and hilarious because the either don't have a clue and just want to be in the conversation or they are fully educated and are a great source of debate. the current topic of discussion is the war in Iraq and who would do a better job as president come 2008: condie rice, hilary r. clinton, or barack obama. personally i don't particularly think that any of those canidates would do a FABULOUS job but if i had to vote for one of them it would be hilary clinton because she is smarter and she has seen first hand the stresses and jobs of the presidency. also she has the experience of politics that would benefit the country. although my personal canidates for the presidency (serious and joke) would be Al Gore (serious) and Jon Stewart/Stephen Colbert (joke).
i love politics. it is so entertaining to be talking about it on a college campus.
oh and currently we are talking about education costs and who gets to go cheaper: people from Asia or Hispanics. i'm pleasantly keeping my mouth shut because i don't feel like debating stupid people. :D

until next time...

"Hairy legs are your only link to Reality"

so spring break is over and i am not happy. i am so not ready to be at school! but the happy thing is, it is only 6 more weeks and then i am home!!!! and then it is only 7 weeks until my sister will be here with her babies and the scotsman!! THEN, by the middle of May (cross your fingers!!) i will have a nephew!!!! so that is what i have keeping me going for the last stretch of school. it sucks i know, but i'll get over it (and through it)!

tonight was also my little brother (aka running son/brother)'s court of honor and it was wonderful! a little bit blah cuz of droning speakers, but ultimately it was really sweet and good! i'm very proud of the youngest clan member! he gone and done good! lots of family was able to come which was great.

and thats about it for my comments of the night.
until next week:
same bat-time. same bat-channel.

"Peanuts, Cool. I'm in!"

So far this glorious spring break, I have accomplished...nothing. :D But in reality I have done the following:
1) Movies
-Breach (*fabulous!!)
-Bridge to Terabithia (sp??) (*surprisingly good, upsettingly sad!)
-Charlotte's Web (*good, but I hate spiders so the little ones at the end freaked me out!)
2) Lunch with my Dad at Cafe Rio (really good and a wonderful lunch with daddy!)
3) Lunches with Mom (always fun and always a tad hilarious!)
4) Shopping with Mom (again, always fun but a little bit bad...)
-Target
-Outlet Stores in Park City (Banana Republic, the Gap, and Old Navy)
5) Dinner with my siblings, Dad and step mom (fun and funny, as always)
6) Slept in
7) Watched mass quantities of Law and Order: CI and SVU (both fabulous and both disturbing at times.)
8) Watch Harry Potter 1&2 (plan on 3&4!)
That about sums up the 6 days I've been here. I love being home! It is so...homey and comfy! I can't wait for the semester to be over so that I can be home more!! I'm on of those weird "teenager's" (used quoted cuz I'm 20) who actually enjoys being with family!!

Today was a really fun day because I got to go to my sister-in-law's class (she is a 1st grade teacher) and help out with their math and be the "visitor of the day" and tell/teach them about photography and it was so much fun! S-I-L was very pleased with the way it went because I was able to get the kids enthused about the camera's! I love going to her classroom's because I love little kids! They were all so cute and hilarious!


The enthusiastic class!



How NOT to take a picture :D (that is my finger!)

So you said there'd be movies. and there aren't...

So it is spring break and I couldn't be happier!!! It came at the perfect time I feel. Except that the current movie market for mom and I is not so happy, but crap-tastic movies has never stopped us before! All hail the world of crap movies! Being able to spend some quality uncomfortable and slighty gross movie theater chairs with my mom is something I'm so very excited for!
Also the shopping stuff doesn't suck either.
I'm trying to re-invent my look and to do that, I need a whole new wardrobe and today was the first installment of said wardrobe. I got some really good sleek and flattering clothes and of course some fabulous new shoes! As I have recently decided to start saying: the outfit is as only good as the shoes that match!
Over and out. :D

Boo you Whore!

So this is going to be short (I hope) and sweet.

There is this boy, who we'll call Jack (short for jackass). In November we started talking daily, multiple times. It was getting pretty strange, meaning we weren't dating AT ALL but we were talking EVERYDAY all day. We most definitely come from two COMPLETELY different backrounds/childhoods! I mean, he was raised in a household where it was okay for racist/bigot comments to be said, and I, wasn't. I was raised to be a tolerant person and not judge others by trivial things such as color or religion (or at all). Jack and I clashed a few times on this specific subject and I finally stood up for myself and told him I can't be friends with someone who feels it is okay to treat people the way he does and I couldn't hang out with him if he didn't respect my position on this. Because I realize, I can't change him (as much as I want to), but the least he could do is respect me and not say anything to me or around me.

Things started to get a little bit better and back to normal for us. Then Jack pushed me over the edge with a text message that is in NO WAY appropriate to be posted on the internet. I told him I was done and then I thought I was done. Jack thought different. He texted me tonight asking me if I was still mad at him and when I said that I was, he just said "Fine. Have a nice spring break."

I'm just a little annoyed. I hate guys! They can be so damn irritating and stupid!!! Just had to get that out. Peace!

I Love You...tube!!

YouTube might be the greatest thing since sliced bread (or some other not-over-used cliche)!!! It has everything you could ever want to watch! It is media heaven!! For example, I just watched an ENTIRE Backstreet Boys concert! It was amazing!

I've also been able to catch myself up on Law and Order: SVU and to re-watch some classic Friends episodes!! Also That 70s Show! It is amazing the things you can find on the internet now and to find them for free is even better!!!

Oh and I have no shame in admitting that I still love the Backstreet Boys. Just FYI.

Spring Break is next week and I'm so excited!!!! My mom and I will be seeing a movie EVERY day I'm in town! And if you haven't caught on yet, I love Movies!!!
K, I'm done.

Movies cont.

Movies continued...
Like I said, I enjoyed all (now 50) movies but I loved some more than others. And per request I will say which ones they are (in no particular order) and why.
1) Lawrence of Arabia
-really really slow moving! and my mom is probably right, better for a big screen than a small computer screen..
2) The Grapes of Wrath
-gotta say, won't be reading the book anytime soon. I'm glad I saw it but it just wasn't as amazing as I thought it would be.
3) 2001: A Space Odyssey
-if you need an explanation for this, you need a catscan. I get why its on the list...just not as high as it is...
4) The Bridge on the River Kwai
-its not that it was bad; it was actually really good. it just isn't my taste, so I really was most thrilled when it was over.
5) King Kong
-just not good. fake. dialogue? seriously? again get why, but not that high.
6) Amadeus
-wierd but good. great music. that's about it.
7) Dr. Strangelove
-just wierd. should be in like the last 30, not the first.
8) Jaws
-I HATE SHARKS. 'nuf said.
9) All Quiet on the Western Front
-I think I disliked this film so much because my first introduction to it was in my 10th grade history class and what10th grader wants to hear about this?!
10) It's A Wonderful Life
-I think I might be shot for this, but it is so GRR!!! it is a fine movie, but it DEFINITELY doesn't deserve all the praise its gotten over the years. Plus, watching it EVERY YEAR at christmas like 200 times, doesn't help either.

So again, I really did enjoy them all and appreciate them for what they are worth, but I would consider changing the order of some of these movies!

Oh yeah, and I really can't get enough of Marlon Brando! Every movie I've seen with him in it is just plain AMAZING!!! On the Waterfront? The Godfather?? seriously. he is amazing!

Movies

So as of May 2006, I have started to tackle the American Film Institution (AFI) Top 100 Movies. I am now 49 movies in, and I have to say of the 49 I've personally seen, I LOVED 39 of them. I enjoyed the rest, but I thoroughly loved those 39. I mean, movies don't come much better than The Graduate or A Streetcar Named Desire! My personal top five (which is actually quite different from AFI's):


1) The Godfather
2) A Streetcar Named Desire
3) Bonnie and Clyde
4) Chinatown
5) Casablanca

So, while I understand why AFI's top 5 is the way it is, those above 5 are just movies I could (and do) watch over and over again! I will continue with the list so who knows; this list may change!

I think that I get this addiction to movies from my mother and frankly, I couldn't be happier with that. I mean of all addictions I could have gotten in the world, the ones I've gotten from my mom are pretty great ones! I mean, I know first hand that there is nothing better in the world than curling up with your adorable dogs and watching a GREAT movie! Also, having a great outfit and pair of shoes on to GO to a great movie, doesn't suck either.

So UTAH STATE AGGIES absolutely kicked ASS tonight against the University of Nevada (aka the 9th ranked college team in the nation)!!! It was a close game and it went into OT which is crazy for a team like Nevada!! All the Aggies did their part in the game, but Chaz Spicer went ABOVE & BEYOND tonight!!! the FINAL score was 79-77 and we Aggies were so damn psyched that we rushed the damn floor!!!!

SHOWIN' THAT AGGIE PRIDE!!!!

Well Hell...O!

New to this...This blog will basically contain things I find interesting as well as random thoughts, pictures, etc...so bear (or bare?) with me as I learn how to fully function on a blog. This seems like something people enjoy and I think I could have some interesting things to add to the world wide web! So tune in next time for something i'm sure will be a lot more interesting!