"Haven't Met You Yet"

Because, well...I haven't.

I don't just post straight lyrics often but I need/want to this time.

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I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

"Lightening Crashes"

It is storming and I love this song...

Also, if I played the guitar, I would play this song all the time. (yes, it's super easy and basic, but it is also so pretty...)

School is in half-swing. I have been to all my classes and now know the basics of what all the classes expect and require, but I still don't know where/when I will be tutoring for my math class and that is bothering me. :/

But I am so very excited* for tutoring. *read nervous*
It will be such an incredible learning experience for me and I can't wait to get into it and start.

Also, this week starts the beginning of my new work out regime:
Pilates on M/W/F and Couch-to-5K with "15 min energy boost Pilates" on T/Th/S.
It will be awesome. I did 45 minutes of Pilates last night before bed and I have never felt more rested when I woke up this morning. It was great!

Um...that's really it for now. Oh! It is 100% official but it looks like I am going to Pensacola, FL for Spring Break with the LSU Habitat for Humanity! Score. What a great, fun and amazing experience! Yay! Spring break on the beach w/ the added better bonus of charity work!

Okay. That's all.
:)

"Crossfire"

I picked this song because "crossfire" sounds like a good fit for a work-out related post. :)

So a new semester at LSU has officially started. This might possibly be my hardest semester of college ever and if not, it will most surely be my most busy at 18 credits: Biology, Geography, Math, Education, ELRC (some computer class), and Human Ecology. All intense and all required for graduation. Did I mention that I have to tutor for 2 of my classes as well?

No. I am NOT complaining. Seriously, I'm not. I am actually really excited; nervous, but excited. The last time I have felt this good about my life and where it was headed was when I lived in... (can you guess?) Boston. Living in Boston when I did was exactly WHAT I needed, WHEN I needed. I found myself, my closest friends, and I was never happier before that time and I legitimately don't think I've been as happy since. Not to say that I have been UNhappy, necessarily, but moving back to Utah was clearly not the right choice.

On the plane ride to Boston I made a promise to myself that I would be only the person that I wanted to be and nothing short of it. I succeeded because I had no reason not to follow through. No one knew me there and there wasn't anyone to drag my past insecurities to the surface except myself. The same situation holds here--almost. With dad/step-mom being here, there are people that know me, but that doesn't really count. In Boston, I started nearly immediately with a routine of working out 4-5 days a week after work. It stopped almost immediately after I moved back to Utah. Why did I not IMMEDIATELY start that same routine (or close to it) here? School is seriously NO excuse.

So that is my point this post. I am going to attempt the work-out that my sister Sophie told me about: Couch to 5k. I have run a 5k before, so I can absolutely accomplish this. Plus, running 3+ miles 3 or more days a week is a dang good habit to have.

Losing weight, getting in shape and getting a 3.5 (or higher) are my goals this semester. Try and stop me.

"Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow"

I love this song. It is beautiful.

I have been in Utah for nearly a month for the school break and it has been fabulous. It has been cold but tolerable. It finally snowed a few days ago and I kinda forgot how much I love AND hate snow. It is so very pretty, but so damn cold and wet!

My vacation home has been amazing...ly busy! But now that the holiday's are over, it has been a lot calmer and relaxing. It has been so fun to be able to spend lots of time with my family and friends but honestly it has been amazing to spend time with my nephews.

While I have absolutely enjoyed my time home, I am getting a little restless waiting for school to start (who woulda thought?). This is the longest break from school I have ever had. It is awesome and crazy at the same time! LSU, how I've missed you...

Oh, yeah--GEAUX TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!

"All I Want For Christmas Is You"

Because, I don't care how cheesy it is, how "over played" it is, this Song became a classic for a reason; and that reason is that everyone has a person in mind when Mariah Carey's Christmas classic comes on the radio every year.
I know I do.

So yes. All I want for Christmas is that special "you" and I don't care how cheesy this post is. I will wish for a special someone every year until I have them and then I will be grateful for them every single year after.

HOWEVER. The real point of this post is to say:

Merry Christmas everybody. I love you all, siblings and friends, near and far. Each one of you has a special place in my heart and I wish you all the happiness and joy that Christmas brings.
Remember the real reason of Christmas and honor it.

"Oh Holy Night"

because it is Christmas time and this IS my Favorite Christmas song: Oh Holy Night... <--this is my favorite celebrity version, but truth be told (not just to be super proud), my brother Isaac singing this song will always be my favorite.

So. My very first semester of LSU is OVER. Done. Finito. And I finished it pretty damn well, if I do say so myself!!!
A--3
B--1
C--1
P--1
Overall GPA--3.4
:) I am quite proud of myself. I worked VERY hard this semester and it was honestly one of my hardest semesters in college ever. Next semester will be much harder, much busier and much more demanding but I will be in classes with many of the girls that I have become good friends with this semester so that will help a lot. I really like the program I am starting in and I am so excited to continue the observations that are required for some of my classes. At first figuring out the time in my schedule to go out of my way to observe classrooms was annoying, but after the VERY first one, I was done being annoyed. Those kids--I am so excited to have my own classroom someday because I know it is challenging in so many ways but those kids just make it worth it.

I am scared for next semester. 18 credits is A LOT. I fear I will have more of a school life than a social life, but I have enough determination to make it work. I NEED to make it work. 25 is just too young to feel so old. I can do this. I WILL do this. I can have fun in all aspects of my life. Besides, I'm almost done. Two years is NOTHING. I'm almost there....

Another thing that comes with being done w/ my semester is Christmas break--a freaking LONG one! Spring semester doesn't start until about the 17/18th of January! I am so very thrilled to be able to have a month off of school and about 3-ish weeks in UT to spend with my nephews (and yes, new niece!) and my mother and siblings and friends that I have missed so very much. 3 weeks will not be enough. We will just have to fill every minute. Deal?

Good.


One more Christmas song to continue the spirit of the season... (my second favorite)

"Just A Kiss"

The whole story of this song is beautiful..."

I was going to wait until my actual birthday to do this post but, it has been on my mind for way too long to wait anymore. :)

I am going to be 25 this year. TWENTY-FIVE. What the hell? A quarter of a freakin' century. I don't know how I feel about that. What have I tangibly accomplished in my life? Not a damn thing. Sure, I graduated high school but no big right? Sure, I am currently heading in the direction of finishing college, but I'm 25 and a significant amount of my friends have already finished their bachelors and are starting or finishing (or have finished) their masters. I have had ONE (count it, ONE) relationship in my life and I was 14/15 and it was Jake and, let's face it, it was more of a train wreck than a relationship. Plus, I was 14/15. I have friends that have husbands and children!

Despite my bitching that you have ALL heard, those aren't the things I consider accomplishments in my life; or rather, unaccomplished things. Those are things I strive for (sometimes desperately), and want at some point.

Want to know what I feel I have accomplished in my life of 25 short years?
1) I have become the best and most dedicated and loving aunt to my nieces and nephews that they will ever need.
2) I have been fortunate to be BEST friends with some of the most amazing women I have ever known. They made me stronger, better and they never doubted me and what I could do
3) I have been able to live my life in a way that I found out what I want to do with my life through life experience rather than numerous classes
4) I have been considered a loyal and good friend. I have made mistakes, but those who have considered me this, know that I am just an idiot who sometimes just gets in my own way.
5) I have had more opportunities to see the country than most people my age and in my circumstance do in a lifetime
6) I am aware of myself and what is best for me, regardless of the views of others (as hard as it may be sometimes)
7) I know when and how to ask for help.
8) I have developed a love for service that will carry me far.
9) I have an intellectual mind as well as a compassionate one.
10) I have developed a geniune love and compassion for people around me

I know to a lot of people that really doesn't seem like much but to me, right now, that is enough. I will eventually achieve the tangible accomplishments that are heading my direction (college degree, Peace Corps, relationships, etc), but until then I know I have lived a good life. I have had experiences that have been very very hard, but I have had experiences that have made me so much better than I ever expected. There are so many people who have been a part of that. Just to be fun (but to be clear this is in NO WAY the only list), I put together a list of the people who have been my Best Friend's at the "5's" in my life:

5 yrs: Valarie
10 yrs: Megan, ShaNae, Ashley
15 yrs: Megan, Ally, Deysi, Jess
20 yrs: Sarah, Rachelle
25 yrs: Emallie, Taylor, Nicole

I am not thrilled about being 25, because of the non-tangibles but I am thrilled that I have the chance to try again....and again....

Just for the viewing..er..hearing?...pleasure, here is another song I have been LOVING lately.